The 54th Deadline: Edge

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“Ultimately, those who succeed are those who have that needed edge to cut through an obstacle.”

I need an edge…

And what I mean is rather simple. I need that oomph. I need that boost. I need that one tipping point, no matter how minuscule or wide, that will take me over to the next level.

Looking back at it, I have always been quite a scrub in this regard. I have been too “kind” to others in a sense, and please allow me to elaborate. The fact is, those who are too nice get walked on, and to show some real confidence in yourself really does mean a big deal.

I have always been content with tagging along with other people’s success, whether it was a group project or whatever. I was so happy just being included, as opposed to being the main star. I have regrets about it now, but I can’t really do anything about what has happened to me so many times in the past.

And this is OK. What’s left in the past has to remain there. As long as I learn from it, even if that acquired knowledge has to start right now as I am typing this blog post out, so be it.

Better late than never. I suppose…

I am just growing weary of playing second fiddle. I am just getting extremely impatient with life itself. I want my time to shine, and I want that time to happen NOW! Of course, no matter how much I want to whine and moan about it all, the universe will most likely not give in to my demands without something in return.

Fine. No problem. I believe in hard work, anyway. I don’t want a handout. I just want a setup, a means for me to reach where I need to reach. Whatever that may be… And this is the part that eludes me.
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I have so many inklings, but none of it means a darn thing if I can’t connect the dots.

It’s like if you were given a sword, and you can have whatever you wanted if you can cut the right spot on a wall. But where would you strike? Where would be the secret spot that will open up to make your dreams come true?

Perhaps I am just thinking about all of this is a convoluted manner, where thoughts are just stacked up eclectically and I am just not sorting them out properly. My gut feeling is to keep looking around for a clue, just something… Anything!

Alas, if were so easy, we all would find our happy spot. We all would find our place in this world. I truly believe just being adamant is definitely important. Otherwise, you can fall victim to your own moments of weakness.

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Everyday NhanSense – Day 125

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 125’s Topic: Despair.
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I have to find ways to dispel some despair lingering in my life.

“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction

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Everyday NhanSense – Day 123

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 123’s Topic: Clues.
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I need to figure out more things …

“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction

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Everyday NhanSense – Day 115

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 115’s Topic: The daily journey.
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To me, a journey implies there is some kind of, not necessarily difficulty, but some sort of challenge aspect to warrant the journey tag. Because otherwise, why else would we even label something as a (personal) journey unless there is something noteworthy during the process?

If it were just a straight shot where we went from point A to point B with no hiccups, it wouldn’t be much of anything, now would it?

In fact, I would dare say my own personal JOURNEY has been anything but linear. I have had a lot of twists and turns along the way, forks in the road, decisions to be made and a whole lot more that continue to delay me from reaching my ultimate destination as a person.

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Everyday NhanSense – Day 107

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 107’s Topic: Baggage.
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I can admit I have a lot of baggage (of the emotional variety, no less) that weighs me down each dayIt makes me wish I could wake up one morning and magically pretend none of that baggage existed. Actually, it would be quite nice if I could forget about the baggage completely and move on with my life.

And yet, I am always reminded that there are some things I haven’t quite let go, for better or worse. It feels like I have a million loose ends I need to take care of, but I feel like I don’t know where to begin.

It also begs the question, “Is it even worth addressing?”

For certain loose ends, sure. I want to get them resolved. At the same time, I don’t know if the effort is even worthwhile. I don’t know if I can afford to divert my energy toward things essentially left behind in my past.
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 105

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 105’s Topic: The search.
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The search continues. 

“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction


Everyday NhanSense – Day 86

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 86’s Topic: Listening.
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If there is one trait I know I have going for me, it’s that I am in fact a great listener. An excellent one at that.

After all, it’s something I developed over the years when it came to talking with people about things. I have had a lot of experience with just having others listen to my ramblings, the stuff I happen to bemoan about, my fears, my concerns, my hopes, my dreams and so forth.

It’s only natural I became a good listener in turn.

I feel I should put this listening ability to good use, as in doing something on a grander and meaningful scale. But in the meantime, I am content with lending my ear for someone who needs to let it out.

Sometimes, you honestly just need that person to sit down with you, listen intently and give you the nod of “mhmm” as you get what you need to say off your chest. I like being this person who can and will listen to what you have to say. You just need to ask kindly.

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