Posts Tagged ‘Suffering’
I am not happy with my current six-game losing streak in “League of Legends.” I know I should have stopped after the first loss, but the drive to redeem myself got the best of me. Pride before the fall, after all. It is just not fun to lose 60+ Elo like that. I know I am a stronger player when I want to be, but the solo queue grind can be downright aggravating. It pushes your buttons to the point where you want to sulk in the corner for hours on end. It is one catastrophe after another, one lousy case of bad matchmaking or troll teammates.
But at the end of the day, the only one who can help me salvage my sense of dignity again is myself. I gotta push myself to become better.
Though I like to think that I see life in a better light, there are definitely cases where I wish circumstances could ease up on the unpleasant elements. There are days where I feel bombarded with one disaster after another, pushing me to my breaking point. At first, it is manageable. Anyone can brush off something negative and then move on. It’s the 10+ problems afterward that really take their toll on your self-esteem.
In a world filled with doubters and haters, simply tuning out the negativity makes a big difference.
As someone who knows a thing or two about dwelling on the bad stuff, it took me awhile to realize that it did me no good to let myself be affected adversely. All the hurtful comments and critiques, all the discouraging messages, all the attempts at bringing my self-confidence down and hacking away at my well-being … they do not have to be as painful as one would think.
Humans are subject to experience suffering and unpleasant circumstances throughout their lives at certain points, while some unfortunately come across more problems than others. To become fixated (or obsessed in extreme cases) over the gloomy, woe-is-me scenarios is not an ideal way to live, don’t you think?
So I came across this news brief yesterday about my old high school and its slipping standards.
SPOKANE, Wash.—Rogers High School in Spokane is among 57 schools on a statewide list of the lowest achieving schools in state.
The state used reading and math scores from 2009 and 2011, graduation rates, and ability to meet federal benchmarks to make the list.
Rogers High School recently received a federal grant to boost its graduation rate to 85% by 2014.
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So in my various games of “League of Legends,” I recently suffered a long losing streak where I kept tasting defeat, one match after another. Due to my escalating frustrations, I gradually became like a gambler who did not know when to draw the line before things got out of hand. My player rating dropped to a low level, so now I have to spend a lot time and energy to get back to a respectable point on the ranked mode ladder. However, I do intend to aim high in the grand scheme of things.
The thing is, I am baffled as to why I let myself become bogged down by so much negativity.