Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.
Day 57’s Topic: Appeasing your “other” side.
There are days where I simply feel like a conflicted person, at least when it comes to satisfying all my goals and ambitions. I want to look for the silver lining when things get bleak. I want to find reasons to be happy in life.
There are lots of elements to want, but I don’t know if I can get all of them appeased. My “other” side is very demanding, as you can see.
Then again, don’t we all have our own other side who is always hounding each and every single one of us, respectively?
Is it not uncommon?
A few years back, I really wanted to land my dream job in journalism. Because I wanted it so badly, the horrible depression took over. And because the depression took over, I became knocked out of commission for a long while.
I do believe it was because I wanted to appease that certain side to me. Rightfully so, that other me just wanted big things.
A swell job you could go around to brag to others.
The satisfaction of knowing my ultimate goal in college, of being a journalist, was going to come to reality.
And so on. And so on.
Of course, the short version of the story is … it didn’t happen like that at all. Almost tragic in itself, everything just came crashing down. The whole house of cards scattered everywhere, and I was left to play 52 Pickup.
Not fun at all, I have to say. But that’s how that series of events turned out.
What can I say? The other me demands a lot. That’s a fact.