Daily NhanSense – Day 30

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Daily NhanSense: Every day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 30’s Topic: Loneliness.


Having anti-social tendencies sucks, mainly when the feeling of loneliness starts creeping into your soul.

I understand myself. It’s in my nature. I have a lot of days where I just want my own space, to do my own thing, to be alone, but then there are other times where I yearn for some social contact.

It’s almost an everyday coin toss in this regard, and I never know what I will feel like throughout the week. I wish I could compromise with my anxiety and go like 50/50 with it, but that’s a lot of wishful thinking.

Like today, for instance, I just want to trap myself in my own personal bubble. I don’t want to be around people, but I kind of have to.

As a result, I create an awkward bind where I feel anxious about being near others, but I’m compelled to do so and thus I am going to feel all kinds of strange for the rest of the day.

Talk about a lot of conflicted feelings. Sheesh.
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Daily NhanSense – Day 19

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Daily NhanSense: Every day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 19’s Topic: Social anxiety.


There is a contradicting aspect that I live with every day – I am a guy who suffers/has social anxiety, but yet I am someone who does enjoy social interactions. This strange paradox can certainly explain why I am such a conflicted person when it comes to friendships and having acquaintances.

Simply put, being a shy person, a shy guy at that, is a disadvantage. I won’t sugarcoat or label it as anything else than what it is.

Do you want to know what kind of person often gets ahead in life? The outgoing personalities.

It’s hard to deny. After all, individuals who can just bite the bullet and just roll with just about every social situation they come across: be it random conversations, asking the person they like out, job interviews, etc. …

Well, it’s pretty obvious why these guys and gals can come out ahead in this complex and intricate game called life. They naturally can overcome the fear aspect that halts someone like me, who can become stricken with a sense of bashfulness at the drop of a dime unfortunately.
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Jumbled

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Who likes being “sick,” anyway?

But a good word to describe my current state in life would be “jumbled.” Picture an elaborate puzzle that represents my health, both physically and mentally. Now imagine that puzzle being flipped from the table it is lying on, scattering its pieces everywhere. It becomes a huge mess on the floor, and thus it would be a pretty good reflection of what I currently am, health-wise.

A jumbled mess.

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