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Everyday NhanSense – Day 27

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 27’s Topic: Getting rid of insomnia.
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Getting a good night’s sleep in a long time has been quite the treat. Catching Z’s after a day full of personal triumphs and channeling all the stress from the past two months into something productive has been empowering. It just feels nice being able to slip into bed, tucked under some warm sheets while feeling the “good” kind of tired, if you know what I mean.

I realize a lot of my prior blog posts have at times come off as panicky, and rightfully so I had all the reasons in the world to freak out.

But storms come and go, and I can finally at least say my sails are facing toward an ideal direction for once. I hope that my body can return back to a relatively, and more importantly, consistent sleeping schedule that I don’t have to feel embarrassed about (no more staying up until 3 a.m. or later because of insomnia.)

The insomnia was damaging to my well-being. My inability to sleep properly derived from all kinds of stress and personal pressure I put on myself (heck, I have even spotted some random white hairs in the mirror for a few weeks now.) I woke up exhausted, feeling upset at myself and everything going on in my life, but above all else I just felt like I had nothing to look forward to each day.
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 16

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 16’s Topic: Being a shut-in.
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I have been a shut-in my whole darn life. It has just been ingrained into my personality since day one. Even as a kid, I preferred staying indoors, tucked away in my room above all else. I guess in a sense I was destined (doomed?) to be an introvert at heart.

Heck, I was one of those kids whose parents would have to force their child to play outside. I recall lots of moments where I would get scolded for not getting enough fresh air. After all, it was typical for my parents to see me sitting on the floor while watching cartoons or playing video games for hours on end. Then again, cartoons and video games were my favorite things in the world as a child.

As a matter of fact, not a lot has changed over the years in a sense. I still love anime/animation, and being a gamer is still something I can label myself with confidence. Of course, the shut-in aspect is actually a part of me I want to change. At least, in some regards.

Because you see, I value my privacy. I like being able to relax in my own personal space without anyone cramping my style. But at the end of the day, I have found myself feeling very lonely without enough human interaction.

A random conversation does wonders for my well-being.

A discussion about sports. A debate about what’s the best kind of pizza topping. Anything. Just anything. Sometimes, I wish I could just talk to more people about things.
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Daily NhanSense – Day 30


Daily NhanSense: Every day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 30’s Topic: Loneliness.


Having anti-social tendencies sucks, mainly when the feeling of loneliness starts creeping into your soul.

I understand myself. It’s in my nature. I have a lot of days where I just want my own space, to do my own thing, to be alone, but then there are other times where I yearn for some social contact.

It’s almost an everyday coin toss in this regard, and I never know what I will feel like throughout the week. I wish I could compromise with my anxiety and go like 50/50 with it, but that’s a lot of wishful thinking.

Like today, for instance, I just want to trap myself in my own personal bubble. I don’t want to be around people, but I kind of have to.

As a result, I create an awkward bind where I feel anxious about being near others, but I’m compelled to do so and thus I am going to feel all kinds of strange for the rest of the day.

Talk about a lot of conflicted feelings. Sheesh.
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Daily NhanSense – Day 19


Daily NhanSense: Every day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 19’s Topic: Social anxiety.


There is a contradicting aspect that I live with every day – I am a guy who suffers/has social anxiety, but yet I am someone who does enjoy social interactions. This strange paradox can certainly explain why I am such a conflicted person when it comes to friendships and having acquaintances.

Simply put, being a shy person, a shy guy at that, is a disadvantage. I won’t sugarcoat or label it as anything else than what it is.

Do you want to know what kind of person often gets ahead in life? The outgoing personalities.

It’s hard to deny. After all, individuals who can just bite the bullet and just roll with just about every social situation they come across: be it random conversations, asking the person they like out, job interviews, etc. …

Well, it’s pretty obvious why these guys and gals can come out ahead in this complex and intricate game called life. They naturally can overcome the fear aspect that halts someone like me, who can become stricken with a sense of bashfulness at the drop of a dime unfortunately.
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Jumbled

Who likes being “sick,” anyway?

But a good word to describe my current state in life would be “jumbled.” Picture an elaborate puzzle that represents my health, both physically and mentally. Now imagine that puzzle being flipped from the table it is lying on, scattering its pieces everywhere. It becomes a huge mess on the floor, and thus it would be a pretty good reflection of what I currently am, health-wise.

A jumbled mess.

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