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Everyday NhanSense – Day 46

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 46’s Topic: Frustration.
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Ugh, today was a day I wish I could just pry open my head and take a look at what’s bothering me. Because, oh boy, today was quite a doozy, emotionally anyway.

I just suddenly felt super frustrated near the end of my shift at work for some reason. I do not know exactly why in the sense that it just came up abruptly, literally out of nowhere. Maybe it was a case of my mood swings going a bit haywire, but then again I am pretty good at keeping the emotions under wraps for a majority of the time.

Ack, I wish I could just toss away these stupid feelings. It makes me feel unmotivated, just not passionate enough to stir up some momentum.

Again, life has been more than fine for me. Better than OK, honestly.

Lots of ups and less downs to drag me down into the pits of despair and self-loathing. But regardless, I have felt like a mess in the past few hours. I am scared. I am frightened.

But why?!
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 43

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 43’s Topic: Days off.
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Phew.

I have to say that getting days off is really nice, especially after a whole week on the job. I get Sundays off, so that’s pretty sweet.

Let’s just say after spending lots of time unemployed before, where having an abundance of free time was the norm, it just feels right to have that one day to yourself. It makes those days where you don’t have to work that more special and significant.

You can plan for that given day, establish a sense of structure and really live it up when the day finally comes.

I feel a touch tired, a bit more exhausted than usual, but my body is growing accustomed to this new work schedule. Working at the restaurant has been good. We’re a busy restaurant, so every day is generally a rush of customers from start to finish with limited downtime.

I prefer it this way, anyway. It keeps me busy. I don’t feel like I am standing around twiddling my thumbs, plus I have great coworkers who make the job a lot more pleasant. I get along with just about everyone there.
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 34

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 34’s Topic: Determination.
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Time to get the game face on!

With stability in place of a job to pay the bills and the means of actually taking care of myself like an adult, AKA I don’t have to starve anymore like some grueling nights I had to endure, I can finally start to plan for the immediate future in terms of projects and ambitions.

The past two months tested my limits, forced me to rethink my life from the ground up and above all else made me grow up and fast. Those random things you take for granted like shelter and food don’t seem like much until you’re backed up to a wall with limited options.

Nonetheless, that particular part of the storm has passed. It’s time to move forward with my various plans.

The first order of business is just to establish some sense of consistency throughout the week. A little structure goes a long way, after all. I have made it a habit to do things like write a blog post every evening at a certain time to acclimate myself, mainly so I don’t become lazy as a writer. Hey now, it’s worked so far, right?

On top of that, I now sleep and wake up at roughly the same times, so that stupid insomnia issue is basically taken care of for now. But now, I have to base my life around my work schedule, using my free time to chip away at my projects and planning.

Some writing here. Some research here. A little bit of this. A little bit more of that.

This ensures I can get stuff done to feel accomplished without overwhelming myself. As a reminder, that sense of “willpower” is a finite resource within the human body. You can’t just go autopilot and not expend willpower. It’s always going to be used, but sometimes you can scrape by with stretching it around, otherwise you will burn out.

It’s always a good time to feel determined! Here is some inspirational music to complement that determined attitude!


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Everyday NhanSense – Day 8


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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 8’s Topic: Finding hope.
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I have to say that I am happy to be blogging again for this past week. It has made me feel a lot better when I can express some of my excess emotions through this creative outlet. It’s just pleasant to write again. And I do mean this with complete sincerity.

When I graduated from college years ago, I wanted to be a journalist. My dream job was just to work in a newsroom setting of sorts. Of course, in retrospect, it was not the wisest decision to major in something that was, though not being faded out or anything, in the process of being restructured. The demand for a traditional journalist has shifted, and thus the amount of available of jobs are limited to say the least.

When any random person can be their own pseudo-journalist with their phones and other gadgets these days, the need for a regular journalist isn’t quite the same as it was even a decade ago. Nonetheless, I like to think that life has pushed me toward a different direction for some time now. It just doesn’t seem like it’s in the stars for me to become a typical journalist anytime soon, and I am fine with this.

But, of course, things have been scary in the meantime. Transitions are always difficult for me. I have a tricky time adapting to change, but life has thrown me into a situation where I have to rethink my plan of attack or I won’t survive. Plain and simple.

It has turned into a daily routine of somehow scraping up some gumption and looking for some kind of hope … just some kind of inkling that things will work out in due time.
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Daily NhanSense – Day 12


Daily NhanSense: Every day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 12’s Topic: Music.


Lyrics
I was so afraid of the days long ago
Now I realize that I never did know
Now days have changed; they’re complex and sad
Missing all the days that I once had
I don’t really think that I’d want to return
Today may be hard, but I live and I learn
My heart believes; I don’t think that it’s wrong
Then it shouts that I have been just right all along

Now is the time for our fate to connect
Believing in the same future, we intersect
All of the tears we have cried yesterday
Let’s dry them up and keep smiling on today
We are a team; we share all painfulness
But yet we also share all the same tenderness
As long as you stay right here next to me
I will stay strong for tomorrow; you will see..
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Daily NhanSense – Day 10


Daily NhanSense: Every day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 10’s Topic: Music.


“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction

Daily NhanSense – Day 9

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Daily NhanSense: Every day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 9’s Topic: Life.


Leave it to an anime song geared toward children to resonate so much with how my heart is feeling right now about life …

Pendulum★Cute - “One Step”

Translated Meaning of Lyrics
Now, catch that heart-pounding dream and cry your tears to release
Step forward to the field as the game starts
And take a fabulous one step to see a miracle

I realized that strength isn’t given
So I reach for it, one step after another
As I keep on working, never ever stopping

Even if walls or fierce winds stand in my way
I take a step forward, drawing my trump card called “Courage”
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