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Everyday NhanSense – Day 77

Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 77’s Topic: Trust.
Over the years, the list of people I truly trust with all my heart certainly has dwindled in number.

A lot of it has to do with me creating trust issues with others, seeing that I have been quite problematic, unstable and downright infuriating as a person to deal with on a personal level.

But I digress.

I can easily say this tidbit about myself these days. I was a messed-up person when I started this journey a few years ago, which led to the creation of this blog. Never had I envisioned this blog to be anything more than something I happened to write on here and there, but perhaps one day I can look back at this blog and see it as something more.

A beginning.

A beginning for figuring out what the heck is wrong with me, while also being a means of remedying me from my troubles.

Through this blog, I hope to establish new trust with others who need that certain someone to guide them through their own respective darkness and uncertainty. I have been through my own share of demons, haunting me throughout various years.

I have had nightmares over them. I have had times where I didn’t know what would happen next. I ran away from my problems. I hid away from the people who still wanted to care about me when I was basically destroying myself.

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Everyday NhanSense – Day 68


Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 68’s Topic: Finding confidence.

It has always been something I have always found difficult to muster when I need it most.

What is confidence, in all honesty?

In a particular context, I think of confidence as being able to present yourself without hesitation. If you can just walk up to someone and sell yourself in a big way.

No fear.

No reluctance.

No need to put up a facade.

No smoke or mirrors.

You just go up and be you, the one and only, and act like you are special. Because deep down, you know darn well you’re special in your own respective ways.

This, to me, is confidence and then some.

And of course, having confidence means you are not afraid of what others will think of you. Your reputation precedes you. Or wait … Maybe, just maybe, you just give a great impression regardless!
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Daily NhanSense – Day 14

Daily NhanSense: Every day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 14’s Topic: Goals.

I have many goals, and perhaps they are too numerous for me to accomplish all at once. One could say I am biting off more than I can chew with having a lot of dreams I want to make true, but having things looming on the horizon keeps me motivated.

After all, without goals, you end up being lost and unfocused within your own mind. Being determined every day is one of the few aspects I can bank on with trying to move “forward.”

“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction

Abide by the Vibe: Pulse

Abide by the Vibe: Your everyday “vibe” is created on your own terms. Every action and thought will affect this “vibe” constantly. Will you choose to be fueled by a happy “vibe” or will you destroy yourself with a negative one?

“We all abide by the vibe we create for ourselves.”

This blog of mine is my pulse.

It’s my pulse in the sense that it reminds the people still in my life that, “Hey, Nhan’s still around.”

The more I figure out things in life, the more I understand myself and what I want to achieve in the near future, the stronger this pulse will become.

When I’m ready, I’ll let everyone know of my presence.

“We all abide by the vibe we create for ourselves.”

The 54th Deadline: Turning Point

The 54th Deadline: Life is a series of chances to achieve something by a given point. You might very well miss out on opportunities if you are not careful. However, I firmly believe that God gives us plenty of means to find our way, even if we mess up here and there. After all, life demands deadlines. Try and try again until your goals and dreams are realized. Strive to finish on a successful note with whatever you set out to do. Always.
I have a bit of a dark secret concerning my past few years … I have been overly pissed off in more ways than one. I just try to hide it through outlets and other therapeutic means.

But enough is enough.

You can call it what you want, but the rage has been building for so long now. I can’t even contain it anymore. Everything really wants to come out. It takes a lot of excess energy to suppress and keep things in check, but I feel like I am at my personal limit.

What have I been mad about? Well, there are lots of things to feel anger toward.

My circumstances. My toxic mindset that pops up often. And a bunch of other things that just drive me into a corner, making me want to suppress a lot of the negative stuff before something bad happens.

But everything comes full circle to the point where I wonder why I try so hard to hold back … It’s not like I am doing myself a favor by letting these feelings burn through me from the inside out. Just a random incident here and there really urges me to let loose for once.

Oh, don’t get me wrong. I understand what I am feeling can be at times illogical and borderline on the petty side, but I can’t help but feel how I feel about things.

For instance, something that continues to grind my gears is people ignoring me for whatever reason. I have grown accustomed to others not giving a damn about me, thinking that I am some lost cause or something. Like I don’t matter. Like I am a big joke that needs to be forgotten about … But this in turn just infuriates me to no end.

I’m human, after all. Humans are supposed to get their buttons pushed once and a while. For me, I have been a perpetual punching bag from life itself. I know a chunk of the personal beatings stem from my own wrongdoings, but then this is where others were supposed to come in to give me a helping hand.

And to those who have stuck around me for this whole time, I can’t help but give you a “You’re awesome!” for trying to stick with me through thick and thin. And yet, for everyone else … well, let’s just say I don’t have many polite words in my vocabulary to utter.

Of course, I realize some of this isn’t the other people’s fault per se. Everyone has their respective lives to live, and everyone should have the right to choose who they interact with and whatnot.

However, I guess it goes to show that I have a lot of problematic areas in my own life to sort out. It just feels like many screws are loose that keep me from feeling “complete,” and thus this in itself explains why I have grown so dependent of finding “comfort” to help keep me mentally and emotionally afloat.

I completely realize I should not let so many things get to me. Not many individuals are attempting to be mean or rude to me on purpose, but something upstairs keeps telling me this is how I should perceive it. And this cycle keeps occurring over and over again until I don’t even know what’s correct or incorrect anymore, what’s normal or an injustice, what’s blatant or subtle … Continue reading