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The 54th Deadline: Putting the Pieces Together

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The 54th Deadline: Life’s always going to give you another chance if you’re constantly persistent.
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By all means, I have been an enigma as an individual.

I have been scatterbrained.

I have lacked focus.

I have been struggling to muster up adequate motivation to achieve what needs to be done in a timely fashion.

So as a result, I feel “incomplete” at the moment. For a long time now, my goals seem unclear even to myself. My aspirations seem distant. My determination, though constant, isn’t as strong as it should be in the face of my own limits and weaknesses.

I feel like I am dawdling. I feel like I am not being productive when I have all the tools and means to accomplish everything I put my mind to, and this herein lies the main problem with myself – the enigma that is my well-being is broken up into so many pieces.

For me to become “OK” when everything is said and done, it’s up to me to figure out how to tackle this puzzle on my own and ultimately solve it so I can finally discover the big picture waiting for me when I finish.

Will the payoff be worth it in the end? I sure hope so. There are no guarantees, but one has to have some sense of optimism for themselves. Life’s a really twisted game in this regard. It’s not like these pieces are all right in front of me. No way. Definitely not the case.

Everything has been thrown around all over the place, adding further difficulty to something that has already presented itself as a grueling challenge.

Trust me. I know firsthand.

It’s been five years and counting. It doesn’t get any easier. It just goes to show how much perseverance one has to have to keep trying. Because, let’s face it – I began this game while already missing a few pieces from this puzzle to begin with when the personal meltdown took effect.

Allow me to explain. Continue reading

Everyday NhanSense – Day 75

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 75’s Topic: Gaming.
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I have a confession to make as a gamer – For the past few years, I haven’t played many other types of video games, at least in terms of actual gaming consoles and different genres.

Instead, I have played x amount of hours into two particular games.

The two most played games?

League of Legends and now Dota 2.

I play a very niche (well, not so much anymore) genre that is difficult to explain without going in depth, so I will leave it at that. Heck, even a lot of the avatars and backgrounds I use are Dota 2-related pictures or references in some fashion.

But don’t get me wrong.

By all means, I am still a gamer at heart. I will always be a gamer. Even until my last breath, I will still always think of myself as such.

Gaming is easily one of the most important things to me in all of existence. I have always loved gaming, especially as a child. There were certain joys and feelings of excitement that gaming could only bring me.

Those afternoons where I went over to play a two-player game with my friends.

The days my brother and I would tackle the last boss of a video game as a team on our Super Nintendo.

Or those evenings where my dad would take my brothers and I to the video store so we could rent video games … This last one, in particular, was probably one of my favorite treats as a kid.

There was always something appealing about getting to play a new game. And even as an adult, that wonder hasn’t fade. I will say, however, that life hasn’t given me much time as of late to sate my gaming urges.

And you know what?

That’s OK. Continue reading

MOBA Monday: An Expanding Genre


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MOBA Monday: 
MOBA (Multiplayer Online Battle Arena) is my favorite kind of gaming genre in the world.
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Once upon a time, the term MOBA did not exist in the gaming world. The first MOBA to develop a cult following of sorts was Defense of the Ancients (DotA).

Technically speaking, DotA was nothing more than a custom map you could play on the Warcraft III game. One could even go as far as to say it was a “mini-game,” but an amazingly complex one that impacted gaming history forever. Yes, we are talking about a custom map here, after all.

DotA grew in popularity to the point where many purchases of the Warcraft III Battle Chest occurred just so people could play it. There was nothing like it anywhere else in the gaming market back in the day. It was one-of-a-kind. To say DotA, let alone the entire MOBA genre up to this point, was niche would be an understatement.

“Oh, what game do you play?” Continue reading

MOBA Monday: Leaving a League

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MOBA Monday: 
MOBA (Multiplayer Online Battle Arena) is my favorite kind of gaming genre in the world.
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First off, many apologies for the posting hiatus. I think it’s been too long that I have written a proper post on this blog. This blog of mine is in fact very important to me, so I would like to pick up where I last left off before a few months back.

What can I say? Life happens. You learn. Things force you to rethink everything. You don’t reshape yourself overnight. It takes time. Lots and lots of time, unfortunately.

Anyway, back to posting. Expect more consistency from me from here on out. This is a promise. Continue reading

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MOBA Monday: A Blast from the Past

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MOBA Monday: MOBA (Multiplayer Online Battle Arena) is my favorite kind of gaming genre in the world.
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For a long while, I have had to do a bit of soul-searching as a gamer. Games are supposed to be fun, right? Games should bring you entertainment and all that jazz … However, my “main” game for the past four years, League of Legends, became anything but that at a certain point.

The moment I found myself being more agitated, stressed and even infuriated by League, the more I came to accept that it was probably my No. 1 source of all the negative feelings a human being shouldn’t have to endure on a daily basis, at least when it came from something that should make me happy.

And boy, I certainly wasn’t happy with League on many given days. It was always one thing or another. No matter if I was trying to play a “just for fun” match or something more serious with the game, I kept finding a boatload of reasons and (often illogical) excuses to rage.

It got downright unhealthy and unpleasant. I will admit I relied on League heavily as an outlet for excess emotions, but I think League was definitely spawning more bad feelings than getting rid of them. The balance definitely wasn’t there.

After a while, I just told myself that I needed an actual break from League. I am not saying I am quitting it cold turkey at this point by any means, but this was a really tough decision for me as a gamer.

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To Live by a New Motto

Hi there. My name is Nhan Pham, and this is my personal blog I have been using for three+ years now. However, for the past few months, I have been neglecting this site for whatever reason. Let’s just say a lot of things happened, which forced me to rethink everything from the ground up. Blogging has been a great means to relieve stress for me, but I fell into a real slump where even writing a post each day proved difficult without proper focus or motivation.

I want to change this fact from this point forward. The blog itself reflects my “pulse” and offers me a means to share my personality and various interests.

“Get good. Be better.”

This is the new motto I want to live by, not only for this blog, but in general. It has become apparent that if I want to get anywhere in life, I have to strive to improve myself in more facets. Being just proficient at something isn’t enough to me anymore. You have to go a step beyond and surpass individual thresholds and, most importantly, be able to stand with or above others in a respective area. Continue reading