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Everyday NhanSense – Day 93

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 93’s Topic: Perspective.
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It’s been a chill Sunday. I was hoping to explore the town for my day off, but Mother Nature had different plans.

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But it’s cool. It goes to show that I still need things like a car to travel practically in this weather, yet I am fine with lazy days just taking it easy while indoors.

Heck, from a perspective standpoint, things are just fine and dandy.

I have my health.

I have a job.

I have food to eat.

This, collectively, is a lot better than what it was a few months ago.

For instance, food is something we all take for granted. Meals are things you need to eat to keep fueling your body, but what happens when you have limited money for said food?

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Everyday NhanSense – Day 87


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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 87’s Topic: Reluctance.
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In regards to this blog, I will admit I had a lot of reluctance when I first started it. I didn’t have any ambition of making this blog famous overnight or anything of that sort. I didn’t even know if I would continue blogging after I finished making the account.

But I am glad I did.

I started off with a handful of daily readers at best. And after a while, the number naturally expanded. Not to godly numbers or anything like that. Again, reluctance kept popping up, discouraging me from showing others what I was writing about for the longest time.

After all, this blog did start out as a depression blog, and it was a depression blog that was linked due to feeling left behind in this wide and vast world. Had I not written this blog, I seriously do not know how I would have turned out, or whether I would have been able to persevere long enough to keep going.

But I am glad I did.
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 83

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 83’s Topic: Strength.
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One of my favorite quotes in the whole world is …

This was a quote I vividly recall being read by a valedictorian’s speech during my high school graduation.

At the time, I didn’t think much about it. I was too caught up in the thought that high school was ending and the exciting aspect of going to college waited for me around the corner. But over time, I learned what this quote really meant in its entirety.

I am strong. Well, more like I had to be, to make it this far in my journey.

When I felt like I was just scum for the entire universe to gawk at, discard and then ultimately be forgotten like I didn’t even matter, I had to realize how strong I could really be to keep fighting.

I couldn’t give up. I didn’t want to. I had to keep finding strength when everything made me feel weak and pathetic.

Determination.

I can’t tell you how much word has meant to me when I have been seeking strength from all kinds of places.
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 82

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 82’s Topic: Clothing.
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Clothes are those garments we need to wear to cover our bodies. We put on and take off our clothes every day, switching them out for the given day’s outfit requirement.

Granted, I am a simplistic person. I don’t really have a lot of clothes to my name. Even as a dude, I never really had much of any fashion sense. I like really straightforward outfits.

T-shirt and shorts, and maybe something else, then I am good to go. Pretty easy, right?

Heck, most of the clothes I have to my name are shown below in this picture.

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Within this bag and box (along with a few tubs of clothes), that’s really all I have to wear. I don’t even have a dresser to fold them into place all nice and proper-like, the way mom would have done it when I was a kid.

Speaking of which, I regret saying something really stupid when I was a kid to my mother. I was being snappy and was questioning why my mom couldn’t get my brothers and I more clothes. I was just being bratty one day. It was probably around middle school, give or take a few years.

I didn’t really know what I was saying. This was coming from a kid who hated getting clothes as gifts to boot. Oh, joy!

Anyway, if I could go back in time at this very instance, I would have smacked myself for being stupid. My mom worked her tail off to provide food on the table, let alone everything else. She tried her hardest. It was just difficult for her to scrape aside money for nicer clothes. It’s not like I was running around in rags with holes in them.

I should have been thankful my mom did the laundry for us, so we always had clean clothes to throw on every day. I should have been grateful, but I wasn’t.

Not only that, the clothes I wore as a kid were mostly serviceable. Plain, even. They were rarely fancy clothes at all. Just the cheap stuff you would find at any average retail store. Nothing to brag about, but they were nothing to be ashamed about because they were so generic.

The point is, and why I bring up this random story of me as a kid, I finally grew to understand what it’s like to buy clothes for myself now. It took awhile, but I finally started to grasp how everything changes when you’re paying for it with money you have earned.
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 79

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 79’s Topic: Patience.
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I am by all means a patient person, but there are days I guess I lose this virtue when I feel things aren’t moving as fast as I would like.

This is why this particular thing at the store stood out to me.

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It wasn’t expensive or anything, but I do like having “reminders” laid out for me throughout my desk to keep me in check. After all, life is all about realizing that certain things just develop after a duration, and for some people it takes longer than others for it to materialize.

For instance, many years ago, the only thing I kept telling myself that I wanted more than anything else was just this – independence.
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 77

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 77’s Topic: Trust.
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Over the years, the list of people I truly trust with all my heart certainly has dwindled in number.

A lot of it has to do with me creating trust issues with others, seeing that I have been quite problematic, unstable and downright infuriating as a person to deal with on a personal level.

But I digress.

I can easily say this tidbit about myself these days. I was a messed-up person when I started this journey a few years ago, which led to the creation of this blog. Never had I envisioned this blog to be anything more than something I happened to write on here and there, but perhaps one day I can look back at this blog and see it as something more.

A beginning.

A beginning for figuring out what the heck is wrong with me, while also being a means of remedying me from my troubles.

Through this blog, I hope to establish new trust with others who need that certain someone to guide them through their own respective darkness and uncertainty. I have been through my own share of demons, haunting me throughout various years.

I have had nightmares over them. I have had times where I didn’t know what would happen next. I ran away from my problems. I hid away from the people who still wanted to care about me when I was basically destroying myself.

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Everyday NhanSense – Day 69

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 69’s Topic: Structuring for success.
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When I first moved here to this new town, I had two main priorities.

1) Find a place to live. I in fact achieved this thanks to the help of some great friends. I couldn’t ask for a better living situation and deal than what I have, especially when getting on my feet is what I am after in the meantime.

2) Find a job. This took two months, and I went through another burst of depression while searching for work, but then things got better again once I found a job I really liked. So overall, this priority has been taken care of and then some.

With that said, both of these things have left me wondering about a certain thing that has been quite elusive for me, which is just structuring my time better for success.

I am well aware I live a decently busy life at the moment, but I know I am not maximizing every minute of precious time to make the most of it. Basically, I want to make sure I use my time wisely, and there are days I feel like I just wake up, go to work and then come home to sleep so I can repeat the process the next day again.

Nothing wrong with this per se, but I think I could do better.

And to do so, I will just need to structure my time with more precision while being disciplined enough to follow through with everything.
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