Daily NhanSense – Day 30

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Daily NhanSense: Every day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 30’s Topic: Loneliness.


Having anti-social tendencies sucks, mainly when the feeling of loneliness starts creeping into your soul.

I understand myself. It’s in my nature. I have a lot of days where I just want my own space, to do my own thing, to be alone, but then there are other times where I yearn for some social contact.

It’s almost an everyday coin toss in this regard, and I never know what I will feel like throughout the week. I wish I could compromise with my anxiety and go like 50/50 with it, but that’s a lot of wishful thinking.

Like today, for instance, I just want to trap myself in my own personal bubble. I don’t want to be around people, but I kind of have to.

As a result, I create an awkward bind where I feel anxious about being near others, but I’m compelled to do so and thus I am going to feel all kinds of strange for the rest of the day.

Talk about a lot of conflicted feelings. Sheesh.
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Daily NhanSense – Day 25

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Daily NhanSense: Every day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 25’s Topic: Life.


I want all of this confusion to go away from my life.

I hate feeling like I understand what I need to do, and then the uneasiness comes back in full swing.

“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction

Daily NhanSense – Day 24

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Daily NhanSense: Every day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 24’s Topic: Emotions.


I have not been very good with my emotions for the past few years. One could say I have turned into an emotional wreck on some really bad days. I have learned how to cope with methods like suppressing my feelings, but it just seems to come out as a huge backlash when the buildup becomes too intense to hold back.

Day in and day out, I suppress and I suppress, but then the lid has to come blasting off at some point. I have annoyed a lot of people with who I am, at least the ones unfortunate enough to see the unpleasant side of me.

I snap. And then things go silent.

Sympathy becomes reluctance to hear me out.

I say sorry, and then the process repeats itself with little forward progress being made.

I hate this cycle. I need to break it.

“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction

Daily NhanSense – Day 23

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Daily NhanSense: Every day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 23’s Topic: Fear.


What is this fear I am feeling all of a sudden?

What is causing me to feel a sense of terror that I thought I left behind a long time ago?

A bit of courage would go a long way right now …

“Get good. Be better. ” – Nhan Fiction

Daily NhanSense – Day 21

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Daily NhanSense: Every day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 21’s Topic: Hope.


I don’t necessarily count myself as a Christian per se, but accepting God into my life about a year ago really meant a big deal to me.

Like, I was a lost soul. By the definition.

I didn’t know where my life was heading. Things felt grim. I thought I was going to end up somewhere completely awful at my rate.

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Daily NhanSense – Day 20

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Daily NhanSense: Every day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 20’s Topic: The long haul.


I will push myself. I will push myself to get past this all …

“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction

Daily NhanSense – Day 18

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Daily NhanSense: Every day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 18’s Topic: Despair.


If there is one thing I am open to admitting as a weakness, it’s the fact that a lot of things can throw off my “vibe.” I truly loathe this aspect about me as a person, to the point where I desire functioning day-to-day without worrying that something is going to topple my emotional house of cards down.

If it’s even a whiff of discouragement or something else that’s negative heading my way, I have to brace myself more than I should. That kind of stuff is absurdly effective against me.

Being emotionally tough is a respectable trait to have to your name. I won’t say I am outright super sensitive for a guy per se, but I certainly can’t let things slide past me like it’s no big deal.
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