The 54th Deadline: Transitions


The 54th Deadline: Change is inevitable. I can accept this fact now with complete readiness.

This is a peculiar thing to admit on so many levels, but I have accepted I am abnormally a late bloomer in many regards. Certain feelings and elements about myself, over the years, were essentially still in development. Or so to speak.

My naive self before I graduated school thought I could remain the way I was: immature, overly shy, socially awkward and so forth. I legitimately thought things would work out in the end.

They didn’t. Not at all.

And that’s why I fell apart at the seams. That’s why I spent a good year and a half just trying to hang in there. I was completely and utterly destroyed from within, and my only real choices were to let myself self-destruct even further or do something positive to get myself back in order.

Obviously, I opted for the latter. It was really hard at first. It was one of the most challenging ordeals I had ever put myself through, but it was all necessary. Going back to the late bloomer thing, I guess you could say I somehow reverted back even more, maturity-wise, as a person.

Essentially, I regressed mentally in a lot of ways. I was no longer that young adult in his early 20s anymore. I felt like an overgrown kid whose physical age said more than 20, but in my mind it was like probably being a 16-year-old teenager again. It sure felt like I was someone in high school again who didn’t have a clue about the “real world” yet.

These days, I have a lot to think about in regards to what has happened and how I am going to bounce back in the long term. There are many aspects about myself that elude me, yet I am extremely aware of one thing: I’m changing.

I am changing in so many ways. I am going through so many inner transitions that I can’t even keep up with them all. Heck, even as I type this blog post out, I can feel that I am an entirely different person.

Years ago, I could write this whole blog post out and “feel” out the words I am typing out on my keyboard, but I can’t quite do that anymore. Not in the same manner. I once was able to tell if a word was spelled right or wrong based simply on typing it out.

Nope. That “power” isn’t here to this day. Let’s just say I find myself double-checking my spelling a lot more than usual. The prior me, the one in college anyway, was capable of that all-star editor stuff. Not this current me.

But you know what?
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 35

Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 35’s Topic: Finding the right friends.
Throughout my life, I have always had my group of friends. They may not have been many in number by any means, but I always appreciated having that particular group to call my own. I’ll admit I can be a bit of a social oddball in my own ways, so it was like I was always that square piece trying to fit into into what society deemed as the “proper circle.”

Basically, it has always been a mini-challenge to wedge myself into social structures and mingle with others confidently. Regardless, I have managed.

Take high school for instance. I bounced around during lunch time with a lot of groups.

The kids who ate lunch in the parking lot.

The other kids who took honor classes like me.

Some sports groups.

The card-playing groups.

There were days I couldn’t tell you why I decided to eat with a certain group for whatever reason. But looking back, I guess my favorite group was honestly just a certain group of friends.

I’ll admit it. We were geeks. We talked a lot about anime, video games and a bunch of other topics that high schoolers would be called dorks for, but I didn’t care. I enjoyed eating lunch with them and just being able to hold conversations without stammering.

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How Resourceful

In “League of Legends,” an interesting aspect of the game is how champions with alternative resource systems (basically, anything other than Mana) exist. What this means is, well, some characters in the game basically play by different rules compared to other champions.

At times, this may seem kind of unfair in the sense that these special champions will never have to worry about stuff like going OOM (out of Mana) when their abilities are paid for differently. We all have faced that awkward scenario where you have to manage your Mana carefully against a foe who literally just spams their abilities left and right at their leisure. It creates a lot of strange duels.

Below is a list of how I would rate the resource systems currently available in the game from best to worst, judging strictly in terms of effectiveness.

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There is a key method when you want to win at “League of Legends,” and this is to snowball.

Snowballing refers to building up your character’s in-game strength to the point where you can overwhelm your opponents. In LoL, this method is accomplished through racking up gold and then using this money to purchase power through items.

All of it is rather linear if you think about it.

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A New League

So Thresh has been officially added into “League of Legends” as a playable champion. I haven’t played many games as or against Thresh yet, but I do appreciate the direction that LoL’s champions are starting to shift toward more creativity (though power levels are often sketchy upon a new champion’s debut).

For one thing, I believe many of the recent champion additions have added many more options to the table. When I first played LoL, I found many of the champions to be on the plain side, and newer characters at times were underwhelming in terms of “wow factor” to say the least.

Granted, this was because I played the original Dota for four years before shifting over to LoL. Many “crazy” mechanics in LoL are often gimped and nerfed versions of stuff you would come across in Dota, so perhaps this affected my perception on “new” champion kits coming off as stale or rehashed in my book.
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Toward the Top Part 3

I am nearing a point where I can say I am about ready to attempt climbing the Elo ladder for real in “League of Legends.” There has been a lot of mental preparation as I fine-tune my in-game fundamentals, especially when it comes to playing well in general.

I don’t want to rely on fancy gimmicks or anything of that sort – I just need to win. And a lot. If I win more than I lose, I will naturally acquire a lot more Elo in the long haul. However, I want to be intelligent about my ranked matches.
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