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Everyday NhanSense – Day 87


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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 87’s Topic: Reluctance.
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In regards to this blog, I will admit I had a lot of reluctance when I first started it. I didn’t have any ambition of making this blog famous overnight or anything of that sort. I didn’t even know if I would continue blogging after I finished making the account.

But I am glad I did.

I started off with a handful of daily readers at best. And after a while, the number naturally expanded. Not to godly numbers or anything like that. Again, reluctance kept popping up, discouraging me from showing others what I was writing about for the longest time.

After all, this blog did start out as a depression blog, and it was a depression blog that was linked due to feeling left behind in this wide and vast world. Had I not written this blog, I seriously do not know how I would have turned out, or whether I would have been able to persevere long enough to keep going.

But I am glad I did.
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 86

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 86’s Topic: Listening.
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If there is one trait I know I have going for me, it’s that I am in fact a great listener. An excellent one at that.

After all, it’s something I developed over the years when it came to talking with people about things. I have had a lot of experience with just having others listen to my ramblings, the stuff I happen to bemoan about, my fears, my concerns, my hopes, my dreams and so forth.

It’s only natural I became a good listener in turn.

I feel I should put this listening ability to good use, as in doing something on a grander and meaningful scale. But in the meantime, I am content with lending my ear for someone who needs to let it out.

Sometimes, you honestly just need that person to sit down with you, listen intently and give you the nod of “mhmm” as you get what you need to say off your chest. I like being this person who can and will listen to what you have to say. You just need to ask kindly.

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Everyday NhanSense – Day 71

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 71’s Topic: Friends.
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Finding friends is something on the agenda for me as of late. I am an introvert. I am a loner on some days.

But by all means, I need friends as much as the next person. Friends are people you can hang out with to mix up your routine. It’s nice to have someone to talk to about things rather than just being alone all the time.

As I always emphasize, I have never been Mr. Popular, but the friends I did have were important to me. You can’t put a price on the number of friends when all that matters is how good the friendships are. At least, this is what I like to think.
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 51

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 51’s Topic: Football Sunday.
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Gosh, what a lazy Sunday.

I was really looking forward to watching the Super Bowl with my friends, but I was feeling really sick and tired when I woke up, just completely out of it. I wouldn’t have been much fun in my state, so I ended up staying inside my place and chilling out.

By the time the Super Bowl rolled around, I just watched the live stream of the game, plus I ordered from a pizza place to eat something throughout the match. It was my own mini-celebration, as you will. Not exactly what I had in mind, but it was fine.

As for the game itself, I actually got really into football when I got into college. I really got to liking the game itself from a strategic standpoint, and knowing the rules does help you understand how every play unfolds.

I am neither a New England Patriots or Seattle Seahawks fan (the Cincinnati Bengals will always be my favorite pro team), but this Super Bowl was hyped up to be an exciting match on paper, and boy it was. From start to finish, I wasn’t really sure what team was going to win in the end. It was close on both sides, and it was refreshing not to watch such an important football be a blowout.

The game being close made it more enjoyable, though fans of the Seahawks won’t be happy for a while (the last offensive play made by Seattle will be scrutinized until the end of time.)
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 50


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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 50’s Topic: Liking that people respect you for being you.
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When it comes to one’s dignity, it’s important to like yourself for being you. Do you like who you are on a day-to-day basis? Could you be friends with yourself?

Basically, it’s a matter of seeing things from an outside perspective. Sure, we all reside in our own little worlds, but how does everyone else see us from their point of view?

For me, I like to think I am a likable person if you give me the chance. I respect people’s boundaries, I am considerate and I don’t try to change myself to put up a facade. Instead, I prefer being me every single day. Every single darn day.

That’s how I roll.

I get it. I am a geek. I am a nerd. Whatever you want to call me, it all doesn’t matter. It’s rather moot, really, because I know who I am. But beyond the surface, I am a hard worker, I am a deep thinker, I am someone with a new lease on life and I keep trying to strive for self-improvement each day.

I may have my emotional flaws, I am not perfect, but then again … who the heck is?
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 40

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 40’s Topic: Regret.
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It takes a lot of guts to admit something about myself, at least in regards to how I have been for at least four of the past five years.

I have been weak. Outright weak as a person. Weak in terms of willpower. Weak in terms of mental toughness.

Just absurdly weak.

But with that said, I have grown stronger these days, or at least stronger in the sense that I can stand on my own two feet with less help. However, I am still not 100 percent independent quite yet.

A long time ago, in the midst of the worst symptoms of my depression, my weaknesses as a person became evident. What I sought after the most was just comfort, a human voice to calm me down and assure me that everything was A-OK, even though inside my mind I wasn’t quite sure what to believe.

And so, I made a lot of phone calls at my worst.

And I am talking about calls that could last for an hour or longer. These weren’t over in five minutes or anything. These were chunks of time out of someone’s schedule just to hear me blab and cry about my problems.

I regret being so needy. I was certainly a major inconvenience in some respects. I wish I could call up every single person I talked to and apologize, but I don’t think they would want to hear my apologies anyway. They had their fill.

You see, and this is me being honest, it’s not like I wanted to turn my once-called friends into my personal therapists. I had no intention of that. I was a confused, depressed mess. I wanted answers, but perhaps a part of my mind didn’t want to hear what my friends had to say and process it properly.

And so, I called and called around, exhausting the numbers on my phone.

Don’t get me wrong. I appreciated the talks with my friends at the time. There were lots of pep talks, lots of “It’s only a phase. You’ll get over it!” kind of discussions and whatnot. I guess above all else, and this is me being frank, I think I just appreciated that these people were willing to listen to me for so long. Continue reading

Everyday NhanSense – Day 35

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 35’s Topic: Finding the right friends.
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Throughout my life, I have always had my group of friends. They may not have been many in number by any means, but I always appreciated having that particular group to call my own. I’ll admit I can be a bit of a social oddball in my own ways, so it was like I was always that square piece trying to fit into into what society deemed as the “proper circle.”

Basically, it has always been a mini-challenge to wedge myself into social structures and mingle with others confidently. Regardless, I have managed.

Take high school for instance. I bounced around during lunch time with a lot of groups.

The kids who ate lunch in the parking lot.

The other kids who took honor classes like me.

Some sports groups.

The card-playing groups.

There were days I couldn’t tell you why I decided to eat with a certain group for whatever reason. But looking back, I guess my favorite group was honestly just a certain group of friends.

I’ll admit it. We were geeks. We talked a lot about anime, video games and a bunch of other topics that high schoolers would be called dorks for, but I didn’t care. I enjoyed eating lunch with them and just being able to hold conversations without stammering.

What can I say? I fit in perfectly. Continue reading