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Everyday NhanSense – Day 77

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 77’s Topic: Trust.
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Over the years, the list of people I truly trust with all my heart certainly has dwindled in number.

A lot of it has to do with me creating trust issues with others, seeing that I have been quite problematic, unstable and downright infuriating as a person to deal with on a personal level.

But I digress.

I can easily say this tidbit about myself these days. I was a messed-up person when I started this journey a few years ago, which led to the creation of this blog. Never had I envisioned this blog to be anything more than something I happened to write on here and there, but perhaps one day I can look back at this blog and see it as something more.

A beginning.

A beginning for figuring out what the heck is wrong with me, while also being a means of remedying me from my troubles.

Through this blog, I hope to establish new trust with others who need that certain someone to guide them through their own respective darkness and uncertainty. I have been through my own share of demons, haunting me throughout various years.

I have had nightmares over them. I have had times where I didn’t know what would happen next. I ran away from my problems. I hid away from the people who still wanted to care about me when I was basically destroying myself.

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Everyday NhanSense – Day 69

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 69’s Topic: Structuring for success.
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When I first moved here to this new town, I had two main priorities.

1) Find a place to live. I in fact achieved this thanks to the help of some great friends. I couldn’t ask for a better living situation and deal than what I have, especially when getting on my feet is what I am after in the meantime.

2) Find a job. This took two months, and I went through another burst of depression while searching for work, but then things got better again once I found a job I really liked. So overall, this priority has been taken care of and then some.

With that said, both of these things have left me wondering about a certain thing that has been quite elusive for me, which is just structuring my time better for success.

I am well aware I live a decently busy life at the moment, but I know I am not maximizing every minute of precious time to make the most of it. Basically, I want to make sure I use my time wisely, and there are days I feel like I just wake up, go to work and then come home to sleep so I can repeat the process the next day again.

Nothing wrong with this per se, but I think I could do better.

And to do so, I will just need to structure my time with more precision while being disciplined enough to follow through with everything.
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 68

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 68’s Topic: Finding confidence.
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Confidence.

It has always been something I have always found difficult to muster when I need it most.

What is confidence, in all honesty?

In a particular context, I think of confidence as being able to present yourself without hesitation. If you can just walk up to someone and sell yourself in a big way.

No fear.

No reluctance.

No need to put up a facade.

No smoke or mirrors.

You just go up and be you, the one and only, and act like you are special. Because deep down, you know darn well you’re special in your own respective ways.

This, to me, is confidence and then some.

And of course, having confidence means you are not afraid of what others will think of you. Your reputation precedes you. Or wait … Maybe, just maybe, you just give a great impression regardless!
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 66


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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 66’s Topic: Brewing up something special.
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I have always been a dreamer. As a child, for some strange reason, I have always had this peculiar habit when I wanted to “brainstorm” an idea, no matter what it was.

This habit entailed me doing something really strange now that I think about it. For a long time as a kid, I would find a bunch of rubber bands and dangle them around in my hands, “playing” with them as I came up with ideas.

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I don’t know why it was rubber bands. I just had a weird fascination with them. I would stretch them out and twirl the elastic bands around my fingers as I thought up something in my head.

A cartoon character.

A video game idea.

A TV show I think would be cool to watch.

Just whatever.

That’s what I did a lot as a kid. I would daydream. I would make dorky, childish sounds as I tossed the rubber bands around in my hand. My family knew about this odd thing about me as well. My brothers teased me about it. My mom would scold me for leaving my rubber bands behind on the couch or in my bedroom.

I would always pluck a bunch of rubber bands from the kitchen and just do my brainstorming somewhere in the house.

What can I say?

I was certainly an odd child. I can admit it without being embarrassed. I was just strange.
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 63

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 63’s Topic: Ambition.
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Sorry, it was a really busy night at the restaurant. And it was just the Friday before Valentine’s Day, no less! Ideally, as long as I blog once a day, everything is kosher.

Anyway, the more hours I put into the restaurant, which is good and all, the more I realize I need to divert some time toward more ambitious undertakings. It’s not that I hate or dread working at the restaurant or anything. It’s quite the contrary. It’s just that my amount of free time isn’t the same as it was a month and a half ago, meaning my free time is that more crucial.

Every single minute of it. I am lucky now to get a few hours in the morning or late at night. If that. Still, it’s better than nothing.

With that said, I want to be more ambitious in general. I want to take more risks, at least dip my toe in the water once in a while.
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 55

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 55’s Topic: Determination.
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I do believe destiny has something important in store for me, and I am not just saying that. I do like to think that everything that has happened in the past few years, both the good and the bad, will make itself clear in due time.

I was at my wit’s end at one point, pushed to a breaking point I never want to experience again and so I continue to live each day with the mentality of changing myself for the better.

Be stronger.

Be smarter.

Be this.

Be that.

Whatever I can do within my own personal limits, I will try a bit harder at surpassing my capabilities. This in itself is where I derive my sense of determination, my willpower and that intangible thing called heart when the going gets tough.

I will admit I have had my share of moments where I wanted to buckle under the pressure, but perseverance lifted me through the troubling times. And now, as I approach another threshold in my life, I want to take my determination to the next level.
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 34

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 34’s Topic: Determination.
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Time to get the game face on!

With stability in place of a job to pay the bills and the means of actually taking care of myself like an adult, AKA I don’t have to starve anymore like some grueling nights I had to endure, I can finally start to plan for the immediate future in terms of projects and ambitions.

The past two months tested my limits, forced me to rethink my life from the ground up and above all else made me grow up and fast. Those random things you take for granted like shelter and food don’t seem like much until you’re backed up to a wall with limited options.

Nonetheless, that particular part of the storm has passed. It’s time to move forward with my various plans.

The first order of business is just to establish some sense of consistency throughout the week. A little structure goes a long way, after all. I have made it a habit to do things like write a blog post every evening at a certain time to acclimate myself, mainly so I don’t become lazy as a writer. Hey now, it’s worked so far, right?

On top of that, I now sleep and wake up at roughly the same times, so that stupid insomnia issue is basically taken care of for now. But now, I have to base my life around my work schedule, using my free time to chip away at my projects and planning.

Some writing here. Some research here. A little bit of this. A little bit more of that.

This ensures I can get stuff done to feel accomplished without overwhelming myself. As a reminder, that sense of “willpower” is a finite resource within the human body. You can’t just go autopilot and not expend willpower. It’s always going to be used, but sometimes you can scrape by with stretching it around, otherwise you will burn out.

It’s always a good time to feel determined! Here is some inspirational music to complement that determined attitude!


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