These days, the notion of hope has become my catalyst in life.
I hope things will work out. I hope that my troubles can eventually go away. It certainly has become more than just a four-letter word to me. In a sense, I am glad that my perspective of the world has shifted toward this positive and optimistic direction. Continue reading
It’s been a wobbly and clumsy endeavor to get back on my feet metaphorically, but life has been going well for me. I am feeling healthier and more productive than usual. I actually have some spending money to my name, albeit not as much as I would like. Nonetheless, perseverance pays off when you put forth the required effort and energy.
I am supposed to be a big brother to my two younger brothers, but there are times when I know I am not doing an adequate job. In fact, I haven’t been a good big brother for a really long time now. Sure, I could try to rationalize my lack of proper, big brother stuff to my depression symptoms and other woes, but who am I kidding? There is no justifiable excuse for what I have been to my siblings.Continue reading
I remember back in college where life had a sense of structure and stability. I just had to go to class, do my homework, take tests, go to work and then I had the luxury of doing whatever I wanted (granted, I had limited free time in those days).
My college experience taught me a lot of things, both in the classroom and because I was living on my own in those four special years I will never forget.
The key thing was, being a college student shielded me from the “real world.” As long as I was under the label of a college student, the real world would have to wait before I would be thrown into the imminent rat race. In fact, I contemplated staying another year in college to stall getting into the real world, feeling like I needed a bit more time before I could be properly prepared for what was ahead of me.Continue reading
I used to be Mr. Lonely all of the time. Too reluctant to admit my own desolation, I tried to put up a front that everything was OK for me, that everything was all good when they weren’t.Continue reading