Tag Archives: Depression

Everyday NhanSense – Day 107

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 107’s Topic: Baggage.
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I can admit I have a lot of baggage (of the emotional variety, no less) that weighs me down each dayIt makes me wish I could wake up one morning and magically pretend none of that baggage existed. Actually, it would be quite nice if I could forget about the baggage completely and move on with my life.

And yet, I am always reminded that there are some things I haven’t quite let go, for better or worse. It feels like I have a million loose ends I need to take care of, but I feel like I don’t know where to begin.

It also begs the question, “Is it even worth addressing?”

For certain loose ends, sure. I want to get them resolved. At the same time, I don’t know if the effort is even worthwhile. I don’t know if I can afford to divert my energy toward things essentially left behind in my past.
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 106

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 106’s Topic: Not giving up.
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Life certainly can be difficult in lots of ways, but you never can give up. As I always write on this blog from time-to-time, this blog is in fact my pulse of sorts. My recent string of halfhearted blogging reflects that something definitely is out of sync in my life.

But I digress.

As particular wise words once made their way to my ears – “Pain is weakness leaving the body.”

It is not like I am utterly depressed. It is not like I am unbearably hurt or anything of that sort.

I guess, without giving much away, I feel a bit restricted at the moment, but restricted in regards to my pacing in life.

I want to do more, but at the same time I can only do so much. I want to get my life going, but I have to curtail what can and can’t be done in a certain span of time due to limitations.
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 105

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 105’s Topic: The search.
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The search continues. 

“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction


Everyday NhanSense – Day 104

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 104’s Topic: Control of life.
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There are times I wonder if I am just losing control of my life, as if I am heading toward something I don’t want to end up at …
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 103

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 103’s Topic: Searching.
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In the past few weeks, I will admit I have constantly been on search mode. There are certainly things I need to search for in my current situation, and a major problem is how I am very indecisive about what I want.

I mull over every single decision, over single detail and then I find myself caught up in it all before I realize how much time passes.

With this in mind, I think I need to write out a physical list or something about what I want to pursue and attain. I don’t like this sense of meandering. I know I should be finding the things I need to find without so much of a struggle.

It’s all so complicated. Gosh. Continue reading

Everyday NhanSense – Day 101


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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 101’s Topic: Dark spirits.
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Whether you believe in the spiritual hoopla or not, I feel there are days where “dark spirits” reside within my body. At least, I like to think it’s some kind of malevolent force that hinders me from where I need to be in life as a person.

I don’t know. There are moments where I feel my very soul as a person is being tainted by something scary, but I don’t know if it’s just my own imagination or if I am just that much of a wreck upstairs.

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Everyday NhanSense – Day 100

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 100’s Topic: Priorities.
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As each day, as each week, as each month passes … I guess I do wonder about my own priorities as a person. I’ve had a lot of bumps in the road during this personal journey, with lots of stumbling around until I finally found a course of action that I can salvage some sort of happiness in the meantime.

There are times I wish I could just sit down and sort out what kind of priorities I really want out of life at this very moment.

Should I:

Buy a car?

Raise a pet cat?

Buy this?

Start that venture?

There are so many things to make your head spin when you really think about it.

The frustration, at least for me, derives a lot from feeling somewhat “forced” to survive over just pursuing my dreams. But at the same time, life isn’t all that bad, either.

I enjoy my job. I can take care of myself to a decent degree. I finally have all the independence I could have asked for, which was something surely lacking for someone like me who had to live with the folks at home for a while.

And yet, here I am. I find myself pondering. I just wonder about what I should really be putting all of my attention toward in the near future. I wish I could just clone myself and accomplish a million things at once, but that’s just not gonna happen, now is it?
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