Daily NhanSense: Every day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.
Day 30’s Topic: Loneliness.
Having anti-social tendencies sucks, mainly when the feeling of loneliness starts creeping into your soul.
I understand myself. It’s in my nature. I have a lot of days where I just want my own space, to do my own thing, to be alone, but then there are other times where I yearn for some social contact.
It’s almost an everyday coin toss in this regard, and I never know what I will feel like throughout the week. I wish I could compromise with my anxiety and go like 50/50 with it, but that’s a lot of wishful thinking.
Like today, for instance, I just want to trap myself in my own personal bubble. I don’t want to be around people, but I kind of have to.
As a result, I create an awkward bind where I feel anxious about being near others, but I’m compelled to do so and thus I am going to feel all kinds of strange for the rest of the day.
Talk about a lot of conflicted feelings. Sheesh.