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Everyday NhanSense – Day 46

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 46’s Topic: Frustration.
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Ugh, today was a day I wish I could just pry open my head and take a look at what’s bothering me. Because, oh boy, today was quite a doozy, emotionally anyway.

I just suddenly felt super frustrated near the end of my shift at work for some reason. I do not know exactly why in the sense that it just came up abruptly, literally out of nowhere. Maybe it was a case of my mood swings going a bit haywire, but then again I am pretty good at keeping the emotions under wraps for a majority of the time.

Ack, I wish I could just toss away these stupid feelings. It makes me feel unmotivated, just not passionate enough to stir up some momentum.

Again, life has been more than fine for me. Better than OK, honestly.

Lots of ups and less downs to drag me down into the pits of despair and self-loathing. But regardless, I have felt like a mess in the past few hours. I am scared. I am frightened.

But why?!
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 43

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 43’s Topic: Days off.
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Phew.

I have to say that getting days off is really nice, especially after a whole week on the job. I get Sundays off, so that’s pretty sweet.

Let’s just say after spending lots of time unemployed before, where having an abundance of free time was the norm, it just feels right to have that one day to yourself. It makes those days where you don’t have to work that more special and significant.

You can plan for that given day, establish a sense of structure and really live it up when the day finally comes.

I feel a touch tired, a bit more exhausted than usual, but my body is growing accustomed to this new work schedule. Working at the restaurant has been good. We’re a busy restaurant, so every day is generally a rush of customers from start to finish with limited downtime.

I prefer it this way, anyway. It keeps me busy. I don’t feel like I am standing around twiddling my thumbs, plus I have great coworkers who make the job a lot more pleasant. I get along with just about everyone there.
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 35

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 35’s Topic: Finding the right friends.
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Throughout my life, I have always had my group of friends. They may not have been many in number by any means, but I always appreciated having that particular group to call my own. I’ll admit I can be a bit of a social oddball in my own ways, so it was like I was always that square piece trying to fit into into what society deemed as the “proper circle.”

Basically, it has always been a mini-challenge to wedge myself into social structures and mingle with others confidently. Regardless, I have managed.

Take high school for instance. I bounced around during lunch time with a lot of groups.

The kids who ate lunch in the parking lot.

The other kids who took honor classes like me.

Some sports groups.

The card-playing groups.

There were days I couldn’t tell you why I decided to eat with a certain group for whatever reason. But looking back, I guess my favorite group was honestly just a certain group of friends.

I’ll admit it. We were geeks. We talked a lot about anime, video games and a bunch of other topics that high schoolers would be called dorks for, but I didn’t care. I enjoyed eating lunch with them and just being able to hold conversations without stammering.

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Everyday NhanSense – Day 34

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 34’s Topic: Determination.
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Time to get the game face on!

With stability in place of a job to pay the bills and the means of actually taking care of myself like an adult, AKA I don’t have to starve anymore like some grueling nights I had to endure, I can finally start to plan for the immediate future in terms of projects and ambitions.

The past two months tested my limits, forced me to rethink my life from the ground up and above all else made me grow up and fast. Those random things you take for granted like shelter and food don’t seem like much until you’re backed up to a wall with limited options.

Nonetheless, that particular part of the storm has passed. It’s time to move forward with my various plans.

The first order of business is just to establish some sense of consistency throughout the week. A little structure goes a long way, after all. I have made it a habit to do things like write a blog post every evening at a certain time to acclimate myself, mainly so I don’t become lazy as a writer. Hey now, it’s worked so far, right?

On top of that, I now sleep and wake up at roughly the same times, so that stupid insomnia issue is basically taken care of for now. But now, I have to base my life around my work schedule, using my free time to chip away at my projects and planning.

Some writing here. Some research here. A little bit of this. A little bit more of that.

This ensures I can get stuff done to feel accomplished without overwhelming myself. As a reminder, that sense of “willpower” is a finite resource within the human body. You can’t just go autopilot and not expend willpower. It’s always going to be used, but sometimes you can scrape by with stretching it around, otherwise you will burn out.

It’s always a good time to feel determined! Here is some inspirational music to complement that determined attitude!


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Everyday NhanSense – Day 23

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 23’s Topic: Good luck charms.
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I still have it.

The 功 necklace I bought at the anime store from the mall is still being carried with me each day. I freak out if I misplace it, even for a moment. I still don’t like wearing jewelry of any kind (I don’t even like the sensation of a watch around my wrist), so I just have this thing chilling in my pocket.

And sometimes, I’ll admit I like to take it out and twirl it around when I’m thinking. It’s only natural, right?

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This necklace isn’t worth much by all means, but the 功 itself is still important to me. It acts as a constant reminder of how I can get myself out of any predicament.

功, again, means “success.” Its symbol components consist of “work” and “strength.” You need to work toward success and have the necessary strength to endure and make it happen. Isn’t this what life is all about?

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Everyday NhanSense – Day 22

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 22’s Topic: Brainstorming.
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First off, I want to throw out some apologies in case some of my blog posts this past week in particular have been a bit too dour or anything like that. I would like to pretend that everything is A-OK for me at the moment, but they’re not. Things suck, so I don’t want to sugarcoat it.

It’s something I have picked up over the years. When the going gets tough, hiding from your problems doesn’t make the issues disappear. They still will be waiting for you at the end of the day, unless of course you do something about them.

During those particular days where a lot of my options are exhausted, it goes back to something I keep telling myself – “Spend more time brewing and less time brooding.” If you have the time and energy to sulk, feel depressed or whatever negative-filled activity you could subject yourself through, don’t.

Instead, and this is a big INSTEAD, convert those grim feelings toward something productive and positive.

For instance, a random thing I have found myself doing a lot in the past two months is just getting an old-fashioned notebook and then jotting things down by pen. Oh my gosh! It’s so retro! Writing something by hand!

How absurd … How absurd!

But hey, whatever works will suffice. That’s the way I see it.

Anyway, I find myself just scribbling random notes and tidbits down all the time. It could just be simple plans for the next day or they could be me brainstorming stuff up for various concepts I want to develop or pursue.

And other times, they’re just little notes like the one below.

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Everyday NhanSense – Day 21


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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 21’s Topic: Card games.
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One of my favorite types of games out there is easily any card game. There is something intricate about cards that I just enjoy. A good card game gets my mind thinking from all kinds of angles, especially when deep and intricate strategies go beyond just the text on the cards.

The first card game I really got into was Yu-Gi-Oh! all the way back in middle school. I played the card game with my little brothers and friends. The game boomed in popularity for a few years, lingering into the end of my freshman year of high school before the fad died down (for the time, anyway.)
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Needless to say, I’ll admit I was one of those dorky kids who liked playing some matches with other random kids in the library during lunch break. Yeah, I was one of those people during freshman year of high school. Big surprise, right?

For an overly shy guy like myself with severe social anxiety, card games did not force, but more like, they encouraged me to be sociable. The person who would clam up under normal circumstances suddenly became a lot more vocal and confident when it came to slamming cards down onto the table with confidence.

But as the Yu-Gi-Oh! card game started to fade away in its local player base around my area, I had to store my cards away for years and years. It wasn’t until just a year and a half ago, give or take, that I started to pick up the hobby again in the form of Magic: The Gathering. It’s the world’s most popular card game in the world for a reason, after all.
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