Everyday NhanSense – Day 115

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 115’s Topic: The daily journey.
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To me, a journey implies there is some kind of, not necessarily difficulty, but some sort of challenge aspect to warrant the journey tag. Because otherwise, why else would we even label something as a (personal) journey unless there is something noteworthy during the process?

If it were just a straight shot where we went from point A to point B with no hiccups, it wouldn’t be much of anything, now would it?

In fact, I would dare say my own personal JOURNEY has been anything but linear. I have had a lot of twists and turns along the way, forks in the road, decisions to be made and a whole lot more that continue to delay me from reaching my ultimate destination as a person.

At the same time, I am content knowing I am at least making forward progress, though there are times I wonder if I am perhaps going too slow. Continue reading

Everyday NhanSense – Day 114

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 114’s Topic: Reflection.
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What a shift of self-esteem a few months can do for you.

At the start of this personal journey, I quite frankly loathed myself as a person. I saw myself as trash. I thought little of myself when I once had big dreams and ambitions to keep me motivated.

At my worst, I lost friends. At my worst, I lost touch with what I wanted to achieve as an individual.

And at my worst, I almost fell down and never got back up, but I am glad I kept pushing myself.

But, with that said, it takes proactive measures to prevent yourself from regressing too much. Continue reading

Everyday NhanSense – Day 113

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 113’s Topic: Easter.
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Hi everyone.

I hope you all had a great Easter. For me, well, I was feeling a bit blue to be honest for the whole day. It reached a point I am all too familiar with, where I feel really antisocial. Feeling like a shut-in like this, on Easter no less, sucks.

I would rather be with my friends and family. Instead, I found myself napping all day. Not exactly exhilarating by any means.

Even as I continue to advance forward in life, I find these uneventful days to be a reminder that I am not well. I am not quite there so to speak.
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 112

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 112’s Topic: Food.
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It’s time for grocery shopping.

Not having a vehicle of my own makes it a tad inconvenient to get groceries when I really need them. Nonetheless, I manage by either taking the bus or manning up and just walking up the steep hill by foot, all while hauling a bunch of grocery bags in each hand. Or if I am lucky, I can hitch a ride with a friend.

Below is what my fridge has inside at the moment, which is not much.

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But it’s OK. It’s not like I can’t afford to buy more groceries.

Actually, below is a picture of an EBT (Electronic Benefits Transfer) Card I had to get that is no longer in effect. I got scared a few months back because I was jobless, wasn’t sure how long it would take before I would end up back on my feet and so circumstances prompted me to get one.

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It’s actually very easy to get such a card if you are really poor like I was.

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Everyday NhanSense – Day 111

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 111’s Topic: Figuring out what’s truly precious in life.
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I had a lot to think about in the past few days. No scratch that. It was a real turning point, something that grew into a huge epiphany I had to come to grips with in regards to my “weakness.” In a nutshell, my mood swings almost got me fired from my job. My emotions turned that vile enough to warrant a talk with my boss before my all-day shift on Wednesday.

He said he was going to fire me as soon as he walked through the door, but after talking it out with me, he instead opted to let me off for the day so we could both think about our priorities for the restaurant.

Gosh, this sure hurt.

Well, I am not going to sugarcoat, nor will I condone, my actions on the bad night in question. I was simply out of line. That happened to be a night where I let the meaner side (I say meaner because, quite frankly, it was maybe just a 2 out of 5 about how vicious I can really get …) leak out past the surface.

I was moody. I was unpleasant. I was just someone you didn’t want to be around, let alone attempt to work with during the heat of a busy dinner rush where everyone was already on edge from how packed the place was outside on the dining floor.

I was weak and allowed the pressure of the night get to me. I shouldn’t have. It was tough for everyone at the restaurant. I have honestly been through a lot worse in terms of volume and speed, yet my composure crumbled. My sense of control faltered when I needed to tighten the valve even more before I blew a gasket.

It led to me snapping at coworkers and slamming things around me. My actions were inappropriate. My attitude was not acceptable under any circumstances.

So when I was literally on the verge of being fired, I had to rethink my priorities again.

I had to talk it out with people. Heck, I literally even spoke with a pastor for hours about this whole situation. Continue reading

Everyday NhanSense – Day 110


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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 110’s Topic: A roller coaster of emotions.
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Today was just one of those days where I had to experience the ill effects of my prominent mood swings.

I used to be very hush-hush about my mood swings, pretending they weren’t such a big deal. In reality, they affect me for better or for worse each day in some degree. There are no patterns to follow. There is no real way of me knowing what’s going to be felt emotionally for a given day. It’s all very random.

I can be happy one second, completely mad the next and something else in between just a mere moment afterward.

What a roller coaster of emotions.

In fact, these mood swings of mine create so many inconsistencies in my life. I wish I could be one thing, but I just can’t be. The ride is up and down, sideways with some loops thrown into the mix.

Perhaps I would be more content with life knowing that my own emotional track was something more simple and straightforward by design, but instead I must deal with something so absurdly random that it bothers the heck out of me to no end.

Sigh. Continue reading

Everyday NhanSense – Day 109


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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 109’s Topic: Launching soon.
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To all my wonderful blog readers, I am planning on launching new and exciting projects. Not only for this blog, but I will attempt to step up my game and really push forth with my various planned ventures.

Stay tuned for the next few days. :)

“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction