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About Nhan Fiction

I am a writer and a gamer. I am just a guy who is trying to be a cool cat in a dog-eat-dog world.

Everyday NhanSense – Day 75

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 75’s Topic: Gaming.
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I have a confession to make as a gamer – For the past few years, I haven’t played many other types of video games, at least in terms of actual gaming consoles and different genres.

Instead, I have played x amount of hours into two particular games.

The two most played games?

League of Legends and now Dota 2.

I play a very niche (well, not so much anymore) genre that is difficult to explain without going in depth, so I will leave it at that. Heck, even a lot of the avatars and backgrounds I use are Dota 2-related pictures or references in some fashion.

But don’t get me wrong.

By all means, I am still a gamer at heart. I will always be a gamer. Even until my last breath, I will still always think of myself as such.

Gaming is easily one of the most important things to me in all of existence. I have always loved gaming, especially as a child. There were certain joys and feelings of excitement that gaming could only bring me.

Those afternoons where I went over to play a two-player game with my friends.

The days my brother and I would tackle the last boss of a video game as a team on our Super Nintendo.

Or those evenings where my dad would take my brothers and I to the video store so we could rent video games … This last one, in particular, was probably one of my favorite treats as a kid.

There was always something appealing about getting to play a new game. And even as an adult, that wonder hasn’t fade. I will say, however, that life hasn’t given me much time as of late to sate my gaming urges.

And you know what?

That’s OK. Continue reading

Everyday NhanSense – Day 74

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 74’s Topic: The other “you” in life.
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Compared to yesterday, I was much calmer by comparison.

There are days I swear I have another “me” just trying to get loose. Whether it’s a figment of my imagination or it’s just how I feel when I need to entertain myself upstairs, I honestly don’t have a clue.

But seriously, today felt way different in a good way. I was less frustrated, more in-tune with what I was doing and more aware of dialing back the bad feelings whenever they came up. Sure, I’ll admit I may have been a tad sluggish than usual, but you can’t have it all sometimes.

Nonetheless, the other “me” always wants to find fault with whatever I am doing and attempt to rationalize emotions that are basically toxic and dangerous if they were allowed to fester.

But you know what? They shouldn’t matter if I just brush them aside, stay mellow and allow myself to do what needs to be done to be productive.

Everyone, mood swings or not, has to deal with a myriad of emotions and feelings on a daily basis. Though my mood swings can prove random and difficult to predict, I manage by trying to keep the attention fixated on that spot of zen on the spectrum. When I achieve a sense of personal enlightenment, life can feel good.

However, it’s of course not always easy to find that right spot, and so we all come across situations where we may miss the mark at times.
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 73

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 73’s Topic: Tantrums.
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Let’s just say I am no stranger when it comes to being pulled aside for “talks” about how I behave. Today at work, I had just one of such incidents. And rightfully so, I deserved it.

My mood swings got particularly out of hand, reaching a point where I almost lost complete and utter control over the whole shebang.

It started over something simple. I was sent over to the dish pit even though I can already hold my own at the assistant cook position. I already understand this particular restaurant’s line system pretty well, but they are training another guy, you see.

At some point, he and I are going to be working side by side on the line.

Anyway, I got annoyed. To me, there is no real excitement at the dish pit. Yeah, it’s an important and crucial job for any restaurant, but I feel like i have lost most of my patience with the position. It’s simply no fun when I rather be doing the line and getting people’s orders finished and whatnot.

Things just went from a little bad to way worse over time as the lunch shift played out, as I just started to lose a bit more and more control of my mood swings. And then, I hit my hand on something and that’s when I really lost it.

I suppose it’s because the nerves in fingers and toes are way more sensitive than many other parts on the body. The pain was sharp, aggravating and overall just distracting. And from this point onward, I started to succumb to my frustrations.

I fell behind in my dish pit, which is something, I have to add, that I never usually do when I am on my A-Game from start to finish at this station.

I started to bang my fist against the sink counter out of frustration, I scowled at my coworkers in a rude manner and tone when I was asked to do simple things, so I could tell I was slowly turning into the monster I have to keep locked in the mental cage every single day.
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 72


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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 72’s Topic: Small luxuries.
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I’m quite the simpleton when it comes to certain things. Perhaps it’s because my family has never been rich or even decently well-off while I was growing up. But that’s OK. Not every person is meant to have a cabin they go to in the summer or be able to take the boat out to the lake when it gets hot.

I lived just fine without these kind of things as a child.

In fact, even I ever became super wealthy, I will still be able to appreciate the “finer” things in life in my my book. They don’t have to be glamorous or even have a large price tag attached to be significant.

Heck, even while I attempt to fight battles with technical poverty in my current situation, I have learned a lot about those small luxuries we all often overlook.

Take the microwave I bought the other day as an example. This baby is already changing my life for the better.

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For the initial price of $50 to purchase this bad boy, I can now heat up food whenever I want. It’s actually very nice when I am feeling a bit peckish, but I can just throw in some hot dogs for a few minutes, slap them into a bun and eat and then things are all good again.

No longer shall I have to bear with cold food because I have to.

Such a small luxury, to be able to heat up food with a microwave, but because I bought this thing with my own money and through my own hard work, it makes it even more worthwhile. Continue reading

Everyday NhanSense – Day 71

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 71’s Topic: Friends.
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Finding friends is something on the agenda for me as of late. I am an introvert. I am a loner on some days.

But by all means, I need friends as much as the next person. Friends are people you can hang out with to mix up your routine. It’s nice to have someone to talk to about things rather than just being alone all the time.

As I always emphasize, I have never been Mr. Popular, but the friends I did have were important to me. You can’t put a price on the number of friends when all that matters is how good the friendships are. At least, this is what I like to think.
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 70


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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 70’s Topic: Exhaustion.
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Oh my gosh, what an exhausting day, but in a good way.

I haven’t had a day off on a Friday for a long time, so it was nice to chill out and run some errands around town without needing to work.

Free time is such a luxury for me at the moment, but I feel better knowing I can just have a few more hours to myself to do whatever I want with, and so I try to make the best of it.

As soon as I really get my life under control, this is when I can really let things take effect.

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Everyday NhanSense – Day 69

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 69’s Topic: Structuring for success.
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When I first moved here to this new town, I had two main priorities.

1) Find a place to live. I in fact achieved this thanks to the help of some great friends. I couldn’t ask for a better living situation and deal than what I have, especially when getting on my feet is what I am after in the meantime.

2) Find a job. This took two months, and I went through another burst of depression while searching for work, but then things got better again once I found a job I really liked. So overall, this priority has been taken care of and then some.

With that said, both of these things have left me wondering about a certain thing that has been quite elusive for me, which is just structuring my time better for success.

I am well aware I live a decently busy life at the moment, but I know I am not maximizing every minute of precious time to make the most of it. Basically, I want to make sure I use my time wisely, and there are days I feel like I just wake up, go to work and then come home to sleep so I can repeat the process the next day again.

Nothing wrong with this per se, but I think I could do better.

And to do so, I will just need to structure my time with more precision while being disciplined enough to follow through with everything.
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