Everyday NhanSense – Day 6


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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 6’s Topic: Burying the past.
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As I restructure this blog to my liking and continue to add more elements, while cleaning up the aspects that I don’t need anymore and whatnot, I came to realize that I have been keeping a lot of things around in an unhealthy way.

I am someone who dreads throwing things away unless I absolutely need to. In fact, I can say without hesitation that I probably cling on to many things, both in real life and online, beyond that of a normal person.

But it had to be done. It may not seem like much on the surface, but I decided to delete the entire “Past Blog Posts” page off this blog. All of the content within the page still exists on this blog, so it’s not like I destroyed the posts themselves with fire.

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However, deleting the page itself was quite liberating, I have to say …

Don’t get me wrong, though. A lot of posts on that page are/were in fact important to me in different shapes and forms. I poured my heart and soul into writing out those posts. They may not mean much to a lot of people, but they certainly hold a lot of personal value in my book.

But again, it had to be done. It just had to be done.

For my sake, I needed to think about burying the past. Yes, there were good times reflected in some of those blog posts. There were some crummy times discussed in some posts as well. Regardless of what was showcased in those particular posts, I just had to stop caring about the whole page and just discard it entirely.
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 5

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 5’s Topic: Heroes and villains.
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I have always loved superhero stuff, ever since I was a kid. There is something about seeing an individual/team of people do great things in the name of “justice,” whatever that really means. Maybe it’s the rad costumes or perhaps it’s my inner child always thinking that “being good” is what people are meant to be throughout their lives.

Some of my favorite superheroes are common ones such as Batman, Spider-Man and whatnot, with some obscure characters like Huntress being in the mix.

But beyond the capes and superhero emblems, I think it’s the notion of good versus evil that fascinates me so. Constantly, we are all challenged each day to be our own makeshift hero or villain. I believe everyone has to choose between both respective sides on a daily basis.

For instance, if someone were to collapse on the ground, the “good” thing to do would be to go over and help them out, right? Conversely, let’s say you instead go over and kick the person a few times while they are literally down, you take their wallet from the pocket and then scram. Is this act “evil” or are you just a rotten person?

Another example – you’re in the supermarket. You can go buy this bag of chips on the shelf with money or you can somehow slip it into your backpack and walk outside with it. Either way, you’ll end up with a bag of chips in your possession afterward, but even this simple situation has a lot more to it.
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 4


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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 4’s Topic: Mentality.
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I’ll be frank.

Over the years, I have brooded a lot. Whether it was thinking that life was unfair or how I needed to dwell on a particular thing for quite awhile, I sometimes find myself wanting to sulk in a corner to let the negativity run its course.

But it’s days like this where I try to remind myself I need to spend more time brewing, as in coming up with solutions, and less time brooding. After all, if you can direct your energy toward being a negative nancy, isn’t the opposite true as well?

It sounds so simple, but it goes to show how incredibly obvious it all is. If you are being pessimistic with yourself, why can’t you flip the script to become an optimist instead? Why continue to see the glass half empty if you can just see the glass half full?

Analogies aside, the point is I know my mentality is what defines how I approach a crisis. When I am in a pinch, if I don’t have the right mindset to tackle an obstacle, I can only expect disaster to head my direction.
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 3


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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 3’s Topic: Peace of mind.
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It’s almost 6 a.m. PST as I type this blog post out. As expected, it’s a side effect of having panic seep in all at once. The amount of worries have begun to pile up, causing me to experience insomnia and inconsistent sleep schedules. For the past few weeks in particular, I can’t say that I have hit the hay at the same time each night.

I have had to force myself to lie in bed and just hope I can doze off and catch some Z’s. I am not necessarily someone who needs a lot of sleep to function properly, but I’ll point out how I do have a restless mind multiple times throughout a typical evening.

Do you know what I mean? It’s that in-between area with your mind thinking thoughts and that state where you are kind of dreaming, but you’re not. One could say I take that trip to la la land often during bedtime. Gosh, I wish I could just lay my head on the pillow, flip that switch to tell my brain, “Go rest now” and then turn in for the night. Heh, if only it were that easy … if only. Continue reading

Everyday NhanSense – Day 2


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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 2’s Topic: Believing with faith in your heart.
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As it seems like I run out of resources and options in my current situation, I feel compelled to turn toward that one particular “F” word to help remedy some of my pain and worries.

Faith.

I am not a religious person by any means. I do not go to church or anything like that, so I don’t want to come off as preachy and in your face like a Bible salesman knocking on your door. However, these past few years have taught me to understand the notion of God and why believing in a higher power is both helpful and even therapeutic, especially when things appear bleaker each day for me.

Without faith, I would have slipped into an even darker place that I am all too familiar with … a place where I would never want anyone else to experience willingly. And let me tell you – it is all too easy to succumb to that particular darkness. It sneaks up to you when you are feeling down in the dumps, and then it blankets you in its ebony veil until traces of light start to fade away and disappear.

You become lulled into a sense of ease, but this is a false feeling. It’s not that your troubles are slipping away, because the rest of the world is going move on regardless, but instead it’s more like you are growing numb to both the good and the bad in your life.

In a sense, you transform into an empty husk wrapped tightly by scary thoughts, tucked away until someone or something shines some glimmer of hope your direction to awaken you, finally, from your deep stupor that will in fact consume you.
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Everyday NhanSense – Day 1

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Everyday NhanSense: Each day, I will blog about something that comes to mind. My goal is to practice writing about my hobbies, my interests, my opinions and so forth.

Day 1’s Topic: Another beginning.
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Hello again, everyone.

Long time no see. Well, about 43 days or so to be exact. But who’s counting? To be blunt, I was starting to miss blogging each day. Don’t mind the blog’s look for now. I am still fiddling with everything, and I hope to get all the appearance and post formats set in stone. I was content with the previous appearance, but something different now and then is healthy for one’s sanity. It keeps things from going stagnant … hence the name change to “Everyday NhanSense” versus “Daily NhanSense.”

This blog has been my personal, online sanctuary of sorts. I started this blog years ago to help me find solace in the face of everyday life. Whether it was through rough patches from bouts with personal doubt or embracing happier moments that sprung up here and there, this blog acted as the metaphorical glue to bind everything together.

At the risk of sounding melodramatic, without this blog, I don’t even know where my mental state would be as I sit down to type these words out. As I often tell others, this blog acts as my “pulse” to remind people that I am still in fact alive. Going on hiatus for such a long time proved challenging after a while.

I had never taken such a long break from blogging on this site before, considering that the longest gap of inactivity I can recall was maybe a few days tops but not more than a whole month. It was like I was neglecting something that had been paramount to my day-to-day operations.
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(Hopefully) Temporary Hiatus


Hi everyone.

I am just letting all of you, my precious blog readers, know that I am not abandoning this blog or anything. It’s just that right now I have to prioritize real life over everything else.

Nonetheless, I hope to get back into the blogging swing of things in due time. Again, real life comes first. Serious times call for serious measures.

Bye bye for now, but not forever. :P

“Get good. Be better.” – Nhan Fiction